so, i auditioned for a show my school is doing. "big death, little death." the audition was last night. my monolog went ok, but my cold reading went well.

or so i thought.

callbacks were today and i didn't get a call inviting me. or an e-mail or anything. plus, i had to go by the theatre office to drop off some papers and i saw the director and his stage manager and assistant director laughing and setting up for the callbacks...

it just made me so sad that once AGAIN i fail.

can i do nothing right?



oh, and i am sick of my job. i like the people i work with. and sure it pays my rent, but i deserve a better job. I AM BETTER THAN THIS AND I KNOW IT.

and you know it is bad when even i know it.